Love me sup more.. =)

This fantastic lady, she gave me feedback on my performance on wed, really appreciate that man..

To tell the truth, memories of the last placement still haunts me. The scene of me breaking down in front of my previous sup with feelings of incompetency and helplessness still lingers. I hadn't really figured out why the last placement had been kinda traumatising for me till I met this lady..

Before the start of the rehab routine on wednesday, she spent a couple of minutes briefing me, she basically told me that she believed in giving consistent evaluation and feedback so that I would have time to change and adapt. She gave me constructive feedback of what she told can be changed, etc. And, "chink!" the answer was there, in her feedback.

The feedback that I got from my last sup probably came way too late (the day before my presentation ?!? two days b4 end of my 4-mth placement), not only was I super overwhelmed by the new information she gave me, I was horrified at the job that I did out of the presentation (unclear expectations).

Of course I not saying that I'm the angel here, I should've been more proactive, and take charge of my own learning when sup's not giving me enough of her time & I'm really lost (i.e., stop her, and discuss my issues of concerns with her). Tricky isn't it? To strike a balance between getting enough of her time and demanding too much of her time. That's something to learn from that experience. In a way, I feel that there's a passivity element in my personality, well, as far as academic learning is concerned. That passivity has to go.. In simple terms, I'm a slacker (??).

And my sup, she's not all perfect either. The thing that I do not quite appreciate about her patient-care is, she discusses about the patient with other healthcare professionals (or me) in front of the patient. I thought I probably wouldn't feel good if I were in that situation (seated on the plint, with healthcare workers discussing about me while looking at me. --> I'd probably feel disrespected, and think to myself, "I know I'm abnormal, please don't rub it in.". Well, come to think about it, it's not a matter of my sup, it is actually the vibe/culture of the centre. All the healthcare professionals that I have direct contact with so far, does this. I think it could be due to the close working relationship of the various professionals (physiotherapist, occupational therapists, speech therapists, therapy assistants, etc) in patient-care at the rehab centre. Their working relationshop probably promotes certain openness in communication that patient matters gets discussed openly-->transparency (?).

I didn't think that the CE discussion on Wed was particularly very useful in addressing people's concerns, I get the feeling that the lacturers are just "testing waters" see if we getting along well in the respective centres or not. Perhaps dorothy is more right (in a political sense too) about it as being a "good way of gaining social support". Btw dot, thanks for this morning, I appreciated hearing what you had to say about my dissatifaction with myself. Chanx (that's one the farnie words I share with my sistas--> it's supposed to be thanks k) !!